second thoughts...

do you ever come up with a great idea that you think, if effectuated, and combined with a few drinks, will totally help you regain some feeling of control over your pathetic life, and so then you try to make this idea come to fruition and then you realize that not only was it not a great idea, but it wasn't even a good idea? that really, it was kind of a lame idea? and that maybe you can blame it on those few drinks which might have been more than a few and chalk it all up to the makings of a funny story? but then, upon further reflection, ultimately, you come to the honest and humbling conclusion that you are, in fact, a dumbass?

yep. welcome to my life.