avonexed...

it starts tonight. i'll give myself the injection in just a few hours. and i'm TERRIFIED.

see, it's like this...

right now, in this pre-medicated moment, at which point i am not yet undergoing treatment for multiple sclerosis, this medicine, essentially, is perfect. it can do nothing but good. it's all hypothetical, theoretical, ideal, pure.

as soon as that needle enters my leg, it is no longer perfect, it is real. it's either going to work or not work. and that ambiguity is absolutely terrifying.

so, here goes nothing... here goes the rest of my life...